Die die die~~~~ im totally…. 100% BLUR~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ wat happen to me???? 4.07pm dy………… im stillllll blurring in front of my laptop……… today im measuring kch road again~~~~~~~~~~~~~ last9 I 4got to on my alarm!!!!! Luckily tis  morning ah ma woke me up………… if not…….. I think I hav to call boss for sick leave liao………… sei la……….. a then lo lo drive to ofix…. Luckily not drive to another ofix again… haiz~~~~ durin lunch time oso blur blur sit thr 发呆。。。 tired tired…. After sublitted my stuff to SES went back ofix til now……… still blur…….. replying fb msg….. blur lagi………… open my hotmail, Walao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How so many Sarawak energy mail??? Oh………….. those Sarawak energy guys replying Karen’s mail for the badminton tis sat morning………….. tis sat Carol said go to Kubah hiking………. But then I think I hav no energy to hike le…….. n last9 Gerald said he ever clamped whole when going down durin hiking b4….. im thinking, my leg ever injured 5yrs ago….. n easily clamp…. Even sleeping oso…….. sometimes juz siiting oso clamp unpurposely…….. n how am I going to hiking tis sat le??? Plus, Gerald it was a proper road to walk…. N im thinking proper rd/??? tat mean nth to grab la…………. Then how???? I think I better surrender……………

To9 got a farewell dinner at Calvary………… Ory is going to btl tis sat…………. wish her all d best!!! All curtin frens gone……… most of them working outstation……… mm……… very very tired…. Felt like not going to9… but it ory’s farewell.. must go…..

10min passed, designer called… said wil send me comment sheets to9….. to9 AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~ I hav to wait til wat time le?????

HAIZ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ L

Sitting down in front of my laptop…. Everyday im facing tis laptop more than 12hrs….. except weekend….

Tiring… getting exhausted…. Getting older…. Am look older….. L  getting blur…. Wat happen to me?? Thinking of project?? How settle tis n tat??? Haiz~~~~ cham…. How??? Thinking to go traveling to relax….. erm… actually is planning now…. S’pore??? Bali?? Cambodia???? Which one?? No ticket…. How to go???? When??? June2009??? Or…. Jan2010???? If June2009, may juz only both of us……… I ask him when u prefer?? Coz I reli cant decide…. He said up to u….. im available anytime juz depend on u….. I said if durin June2009 may juz both of us… he said I dun mind…. How bout u???? me??? Erm…. Actually am dunno…. 1 or 2 yrs ago mayb I wil ans I dun mind……. But now, I think….. I mind…. Y a?? dunno le???

Blur… im totally blur…. Blur cin…. Am changed…. I found tat im changed….. startin to hav diff thought…. Mmmm…. Mayb is good for me?? J recall back to the blooding couple case happened few weeks ago in Miri….. im reli cant believe tat case would happen to my own frens…. My best bud as well…. Kenny…. Is tat u??? how could bcome another person??? As I had not seeing u less than a yr…. u reli shocked me!!!! Andy said tat not u….. I dunno… I can imagine if im still at Miri tat time….. dunno wat response I wil hav…. N some even said Shirley is gone!!!!! Wat the F**K!!!!! my brain totally blanl when I heard it…. Gone!!??? Knot b??? keep calling shirley’s hp…. Cant thru… how???? Called ah lik…. Cant thru oso…. Cham…. Is tat true….. I sit in front of my laptop…. Blur n cant think of anything…. Scared…. Reli scared…. Cant tahan…. Walked to jason’s place, I told him wat happen…. He shocked…. End up I cry in front of him… cant control my emotion anymore…. Until late evening… andy called telling Shirley still alive n safe now…. Oh shitt!!! Which stoopid said tat she gone!!!!

Nx day, ah lik called back…. Told me wat he saw on d spot…. Haiz~~~ cant do anything too… it happened too sudden… soo scary man…. Saw own buddy grabbing a knife n killing own gf???!!! n he asked, wat response wil u hav if tat person was me??? R u crazy?? Y u said sth like tis??? U dun try to giv this kind of surprise to me k???? for sure I wil hav the same response as well k…… n mayb…. Even worst?? Dun dare to imagine as welll…. I think I hav to go for body check as I may hav heart attack disease…..

Sei lo sei lo…. Still blur blur…. Sleep more oso cant release it……… hav to go some whr to refresh myself la~~~~~~ planning planning….. :P

Tis few days, found that im easily get tired… dunno y??? last wed, I can slept whole nite without havin any dinner…. After back fr work, take a bath, then slept…. Woke up at 8pm, havin a bowl of “choco tang yuan” (my favourite tong shui), then, read some articles, went to slept again~~~ until the nx morning…..

Thurs, I was at SES havin discussion wif Areva, Mr. Lee and oso SES, Mr. Wong…. Discussed about my 300kV & 145kV circuit breaker….. then we had out lunch at Ringo café, the new opening opposite naim building which selling malay foods but the tauke was Chinese…. Quite nice the foods but then the price higher than others….. hehe… but nvm, as supplier will pay the bill… hehe…… :P lunch ard 2sth, sending Mr. Lee back to Grand Magherita hotel…. Durin the journey back, we were chat a lotz… as he only older than me 6 yrs… but we havin same interest…. Play badminton n basketball…. :P he said, mayb nx time he come, we can play together~~~~ nice nice……

Havin happy mood  on thurs, lin chuang called me ard 12sth, askin for lunch but I cant.. then we date for dinner…. N she said she joining badminton at nite…. After talk wif her, I changed my mind to go badminton which I had informed everyone im not going the day b4…. Haha……….. coz I felt tat im so energetic…. Mayb slept too much the nite b4 and work finished earlier so I change my mind to go…. Then, sms to Gerald telling him tat I had changed my mind and decided to go badminton to9…… and asking him whether he wanna go o not??? And he replied -.-|||~~~~ hihi…. Well, hav to get use to my mood lo… can change very sudden de….. :P blek~~~~

Fri, can considered as bz oso as not bz…. 1^st half day, was not so bz…. Arrived ofix at 9am…. Making calls…. Running up n down for draftman for my switchyard dwgs….. haiz~~~ tiring… was thinking how good if my com hav lift n I no nid to running up n down wif wearing skirt???? But, if wif lift, I think wasting many times toooo…. (-.-|||, wat Im thinking to??? Sot de!!) noon time, havin lunch at Food & Tea at Spring wif Jason, and bunch of my church frens….. we talked till sot sot dei and planning to go for paint ball nx sat at Pasir Pandak…. N me n jason were thinking of, my frens form a team n our side form a team…. Then we can play… hahaah~~~~ n we start to imagine the scene of playing paintball…. -.-||| soooo many idea n sooo hardworking to planning on tis event but seems like we not sooo hardworking for our work le??? Hahhaha XD after lunch, we went to Padini….. hahaha… I grabbed a shoes and a pair of earling… then went back to ofix as omos 3pm lo….

Nightmare coming, arrived ofix at 3pm… doing report… suddenly hp rang… civl sub con called discuss bout report… ok… put down the ph a while… rang again… SES’s trainee engineer called… talk bout nx week meeting… ok put down ph, a while.. rang again!!!!! Designer called…. Talk bout half an hr….. wua~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ while in a call wif designer… call waiting keep coming in fr SES again~~~~ die die die… y so many calls????? Hold designer ans SES…. 430pm….. rush!!!! Rushing to SES to submit my dwgs….. on d way to SES, someone sms…. It was 440pm….. sms: gd morning, wat u doin thr???? I was -.-|||… morning?????!!!!! 440PM la….. n I replied: eveing lo,,, still morning….. I was rushin to Naim to submit my dwgs la…… relied: u left 12minutes to reach Naim oh…. Can u make it????? Haha.. end up I arrived SES at 5.03pm…. hhahhaha…………. Crazy…. The 1^st time my hp low batt til 5% only,….. but still can cont sms on d way home fr Naim which I had trapped into traffic jammed for an hr too….. not bad… at least not alone…. Patrick was acc me too… hahhah……….. but I was very sleepy in the car………… dun worry~~~ still arrived home safely…….. hehe………….